Well I did promise you a proposal and I cannot think of a better day to do it than on our 3 year dating anniversary. Last night while we were lying in bed Sean told me it seems like a lifetime that we have been together. 3 years seems so insignificant, 1,095 days even seems small compared to all we have been through. Cancer, vacations, deaths in the family, weddings, divorces, moves down the Eastern Seaboard and many other things in between makes it a busy and crazy three years. What I can tell you though is in those 1,095 days I have never felt so loved in my life, I have never felt so safe, I have never been so happy and I have never felt so complete.
On to the good stuff! On December 19th Sean flew home for Christmas break. I was so excited because he was going to be home until the first week in January so it was the first time since he had moved in September that we would be together for an extended period. Every year for Christmas we normally go away, either right before or right after, instead of giving each other Christmas presents. Due to the fact we had blown most of our vacation days going back and forth between Richmond and Boston we wouldn’t be able to take one so Sean decided that we should do a really nice dinner to celebrate. He then told me that we would be staying over night at a hotel so I should take Monday off. I was bouncing around on the 19th, so excited to have him home and so excited to go on our mini vacation and so excited that my favorite holiday, Christmas, was almost there. Sunday the 20th we drove up to Kennebunkport, ME for the two nights. He had surprised me with the location but I had kind of blown it when I was playing on his phone the week before and saw he had looked up Kennebunkport. The second we got on the highway north I knew where we were going.
We got up there and went to the store to get some waters and some snacks for the hotel, I am always parched when I am at hotels so a few liters of water are in dire need. Since it was Sunday and in December football was also on, so we went to a bar to grab a quick lunch and watch the game. Sean only had one beer and kept looking outside, I assumed it was because the game was a little boring and he didn’t like the beer at the bar since they had no Macros available. He then said the game was going to be a blow out and he wanted to go to our hotel to see the area before it got dark. When we got to the hotel it was beautiful, right on the ocean and decorated like a spa. The room was even better! It faced the ocean and had it’s own private balcony with an amazing view.
I had noticed that Sean had brought his workbag up to the room. I didn’t notice him bringing the bag on the trip so when I saw it come up I got a little upset inside. I was hoping for a few days with no work and just him and I and there was that stupid bag. He then asked if I wanted to go for a walk down to the beach. Seemed really weird since Sean hates walking and it was freezing out. I agreed though since I love it, then as we were heading down a thought occurred to me, he was going to tell me that he got offered another position and it was somewhere else. We would be moving again and I hadn’t even gotten to VA yet and since he hadn’t come out and just told me this location wasn’t going to be good. I had visions of Wisconsin, Oklahoma or Iowa dancing in my head as we made our way onto the beach.
The second we got there and he turned to me to tell me how much he loved me I realized that this wasn’t him telling me he was going to move, this was him asking me to spend the rest of my life with him. He got down on one knee and asked me and I sobbed for a good 5 minutes. My eyes by the end of it were swollen shut and the small amount of makeup that I had on was running all over my face like I was a member of KISS.
On the beach, at sunset in my most favorite state I became the happiest I have ever been in my life. We walked back to the hotel and called our parents and then my best friend Mike. The rest of the weekend we spent together going to Portland the next day and a few different breweries. I honestly can’t tell you a thing I ate that weekend or drank or really did. It was almost an out of body experience and then for a good week I was so emotional I cried at the drop of a hat. It subsided though and I started the process of planning our wedding.
I would agree, three years is not a long time. Yet three years ago I felt like I was in this world by myself. I had friends and family that I loved and they loved me back but I was spinning in a universe with no gravitational pull, bouncing around and doing it on my own. Today I am grounded circling my sun as we as a team make our way through the world together. There is no worry of me flying off into nothing because I know he is here keeping me just where I need to be.